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Comfortably Numb

What’s a song that changed your life?

Pink Floyd’s “Comfortably Numb” changed my life in 1979. I was 12 years old and had been in immense pain from childhood RA since I was 9. The words spoke to me. I felt like I was always forcing a smile to hide how much I was hurting. At times, I felt disconnected from reality, like I was never fully living in the moment. It’s still my number one song to this day.

As a matter of fact, it means more to me now than it did when I was a child. It brings me solace. It brings me warmth. It hugs me like a blanket and lets me know I’ll always be protected. It reminds me that I’ll never have to carry more than I can handle. Even on the days when it feels like my whole world is crumbling, I know I can put that song on and feel perfectly and utterly comfortably numb.

On those days, I reach for my soothing CBD balm. Rubbing it into my aching joints helps ease my body’s anger and quiet my mind. It gives me a moment to breathe so I can LIVE today instead of just getting through it, comfortably numb.

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First Impressions…

What’s the first impression you want to give people?

I feel blessed every morning I am able to walk down each street in a four mile radius from my home. The first impression I try to give is that I treat others the way I wish to be treated. In order to achieve this, I greet ALL passersby with confidence and respect. While I look them in the eye, I greet them hello with a smile as big as my face. At first I received looks I perceived to obviously be, “why is this old, blonde, walker bound woman, smoking an old man’s wooden pipe with a draft of Mary Jane seeping out and dressed like she’s a punk rocker unaware that 58 years old woman shouldn’t be wearing clothes like they’re still in high school”? As I am persistence AF, I continued to say hello. The third time is a charm it turns out as people started saying hello before I did. I am proud to say that I learn a new word of their respective languages and receive gifts almost daily and it all started with an old, blonde, stoner (triple threat) saying a friendly high(?).